i'm still alive

sorry everybody....if there even is an everybody haha

i've been terribly busy trying to save the world....i promise i'll be back soon in full force....posting music, poetry, articles about the current plight of faggots in america and around the world and so much more


love beams,

chauncey d

30 second clips of hard candy!!!!

everyone has been saying this is her new bedtime stories...i think it's closer to being a mix of the first album and erotica. the clips are in shitty quality but they give you a painful teaser of what's to come! i'm really impressed! there's a few crazy vocal arrangement choices but it's madonna's spin on the whole r&b thing. it all sounds really shiny and new and basically a completely new madonna! take a listen!

hard candy clips

take a tree

so here's an old ditty by paul robeson. it was originally a poem but then became a song with some beautiful instrumentation and lovely singing. one of the campuses at rutger's where i went to college was named after him but i never really knew much about him. but you'll certainly admit that a certain pop star and her 'urban' producer from the mid nineties must have heard this several times before recording what remains to be her biggest and most successful hit in the states.

the ruins

so i went to see 'the ruins' tonight. my god! what an insane psychological horror movie it was! the tension and the fear transferred beautifully from the screen into your gut. the entire time while i watched i tried to imagine what i would do in the character's situation.

i just found out it was based on a book which i imagine was a very difficult read, but this movie definitely shone because of its visual interpretation.

set in mexico, 'the ruins' follows two couples and a fellow tourist that they befriend along with his friend through a macabre maze of major psychodrama, gore and naive hope. they agree to go on a tour of an old mayan pyramid that has been erased from maps long ago. once they get to their destination, they are confronted with a small group of mayans that still live in the jungle. the mayans prevent the four of them from leaving the pyramid. they don't understand at first why but they soon find out that the villagers want to prevent the monster they soon discover from leaving the pyramid and they will do anything they can to do so.

it's hard to talk about the plot without ruining the story so i'll leave it at that. the commercials are on constantly and i'm sure you've seen them but the movie really takes you on a mindboggling journey, leaving you desperate to find out what is going to happen next. this is definitely a movie i would recommend. i thoroughly enjoyed the originality of the script and admired the performances of the relatively unknown actors. go see it!

four minutes to share the video

she's workin it....she's refreshin it.. she's boogeyin... she's capturin it see for yourself download it biatches!

madonna - 4 minutes (video)

happy april

this is my first glorious post for april...

i hope you enjoy it...i promise i'll be better this month...but seriously...this video is worth it!

homosexual is the new terrorist

this is just sad, sick and overwhelming all at the same time.

Kern cites support from GOP

By MICK HINTON World Capitol Bureau
3/11/2008
Under fire for calling homosexuality a greater threat than terrorism, the lawmaker receives a standing ovation.


BACKLASH
Rep. Sally Kern: She’s received more than 5,000 e-mails, most of them critical.

OKLAHOMA CITY -- A state lawmaker who declared that homosexuality is a greater threat to the United States than terrorism said Monday that she received a standing ovation from her fellow Republican legislators Monday.

Rep. Sally Kern, R-Oklahoma City, said she has been barraged with more than 5,000 e-mails since she made national headlines over the weekend. Most of the communications were critical, and several contained language that Kern said she has never heard before.

The lawmaker related some of the e-mails to Republican caucus members in a closed meeting Monday. She later said the group gave her a standing ovation.

Rep. Al McAffrey, the only openly gay member of the state Legisla ture, said he resents Kern's assertion that homosexuality is worse than terrorism.

"Gays are law-abiding; they pay taxes. Some have children," he said, noting that he is a father and grandfather.

Kern said she has made these comments about four times to various Republican groups and that apparently someone secretly recorded her comments at a meeting in January.

An audio presentation of her comments first appeared on a Gay and Lesbian Victory Fund Web site; then on YouTube. The YouTube file had received nearly 400,000 hits by Monday evening.

Kern said many of those who sent her electronic messages would deny her right to free speech.

"To put this simply: As a Christian I believe homosexuality is not moral," she said. "Obviously, you have the right as an American to choose that lifestyle, but I also have the right to express my views, and my fellow Oklahomans have the right to debate these issues."

A former teacher, Kern asserted that the government wants to get young children into school at a very early age so it can indoctrinate them.

Kern said that at age 2, 3, 4 or 5, "little girls want to play with little girls, little boys with boys, because their hormones haven't kicked in just yet."

But Kern said teaching about homosexuality at this stage "is a very deceptive and deceitful way to influence children" that homosexuality is acceptable behavior.

Laura Belmonte, president of the Tulsa group Oklahomans for Equality, said Kern "is not saying anything markedly different than she has over the last several years. The only difference is that she is getting national exposure."

"I find it particularly interesting that she (Kern) is invoking freedom of speech for these remarks," Belmonte said, noting that Kern sponsored a bill a few years ago to restrict access to library books that might contain gay or lesbian themes or information.

Justice Waidner, executive director of Oklahomans for Equality, said in a press release that "OkEq firmly supports Rep. Kern's constitutional right to express her views, but vociferously objects to the actions she takes to prevent LGBT Oklahomans from attaining justice and equality."

"When elected officials use their power to defame entire categories of people, they abuse the freedom of speech embedded in the First Amendment and violate their responsibility to ensure the safety and well-being of their constituents," she said.

The group called upon the rest of the Legislature to condemn Kern's comments and to pass a state hate crimes law that includes sexual orientation and gender identity.

a pregnant 'man'?

this story is fascinating and amazing! i'm so happy this is getting media attention!

'Pregnant' man stuns medical profession

By Catherine Elsworth in Los Angeles

Last Updated: 6:29pm GMT 26/03/2008

A man who used to be a woman is five months pregnant, according to an article he has written for an American magazine that features a picture of him at 22 weeks, with facial hair and a man's flat chest above his swollen stomach.

Thomas Beatie, who was born a woman, describes himself as a "transgender male" in the piece which says his decision to have a child "has been met with discrimination and outright derision by health care professionals". Thomas Beatie's article as it appeared in The Advocate The article, entitled Labour of Love, appears in the most recent issue of The Advocate, a Los Angeles-based magazine with a lesbian, gay, bisexual and transgender readership. According to the piece, Mr Beatie went through a sex change but decided to have only chest reconstruction and testosterone therapy, stopping short of making any changes to the reproductive organs he was born with. Mr Beatie is legally male and lives with his wife, Nancy, in Bend, Oregon. The couple, who have been together 10 years, wanted to have children. Mrs Beatie, however, was unable to conceive, having suffered severe endometriosis and undergone a hysterectomy, her husband writes. So the couple decided Mr Beatie should try to carry a baby. He stopped the hormone injections and his periods returned, he writes. After a year - and nine doctors - he was able to get pregnant using frozen donor sperm but the pregnancy was eptopic and required surgery. But a second pregnancy was a success and the couple's daughter is due on July 3, the article states. Mr Beatie describes the process as a challenge, listing the difficulties they encountered en route, including hostility from doctors to a situation that "sparks legal, political and social unknowns". The first doctor they approached "told me to shave my facial hair", Mr Beatie writes. Others turned them away. "Receptionists have laughed at us. Friends and family have been unsupportive; most of Nancy's family doesn't even know I'm transgender". "How does it feel to be a pregnant man?" he writes in the article. "Incredible. Despite the fact that my belly is growing with a new life inside me, I am stable and confident being the man that I am. In a technical sense I see myself as my own surrogate, though my gender identity as male is constant. To Nancy, I am her husband carrying our child. "I will be my daughter's father, and Nancy will be her mother. We will be a family." In the article, Mr Beatie says that to neighbours in "our quiet Oregon community", he and his wife "are viewed just as we are - a happy couple deeply in love." Canada's National Post said an editorial assistant with The Advocate confirmed it had verified the pregnancy with Mr Beatie's gynaecologist. She added that the photograph of the pregnant man was Mr Beatie. The couple, however, refused to give the Post further details, citing deals with American media outlets. "It's a big deal and we want to be able to tell our story," the Post reported Mrs Beatie as saying. "We'd love everybody on board as long as they're understanding and are going to tell our story and not their own." Neal Broverman, associate editor of The Advocate, confirmed to The Daily Telegraph that in addition to talking to Mr Beatie and seeing the picture of him pregnant, the magazine had spoken to his doctor to confirm he was indeed expecting.

chauncey dirty treat

the new junkie xl album is sick! the beats alone are lovely and disgusting and there's a pretty decent cover of siouxsie and the banshee's 'cities in dust' giving it the updated grimey sound it deserves. the only thing that misses about it for me is the fact that the female vocalist tries to impersonate siouxsie...which is a criminal offense unless you're the girl from the yeah yeah yeahs, karen o. junkie xl is also one of the remixers of the new madonna single, 'four minute' (of course it had to come back to madge right?). i've always loves his work like his remixes for coldplay, sarah mclachlan, bt and the scissor sisters amongst others. he takes songs to a completely new level and height...the way it should be.
here's one of the songs from the album called 'you make me feel so good' sampling a sample from the 90's that i can't remember exactly. there are too many songs i wanted to share but this one will give you a good idea of what to expect on the album. enjoy!

junkie xl - you make me feel so good

miles away

i know it seems like this is turning into a madonna blog but on the eve of such a risky album and being an insanely obsessed fan...what would you expect? it'll calm down soon and i'll get back to sharing songs and my opinions on other things that exist in the world but here's a little clip of her talking about her trip to japan a couple years ago and explaining that one of the new tracks on her album called 'miles away' will be used for the opening intro to a new tv show in japan. you can hear the song in the background throughout the little clip. it sounds gorgeous and very classic madonna...with a melody and delivery that madonna hasn't attempted in quite a while. check it out!

ellen loves the new madonna song

god she is so damn cute....and it's also kinda cool to see all the people in the audience dancing to it too. the dj is definitely a cute fag and a fan too...check it out

four minutes of bliss

wow! it's finally leaked! the new madonna song featuring justin and timbaland. i must say i'm pleasantly surprised. i had big ole fears that this direction (along with tons of the madonna fan community) was a mistake. she slips right into this character and style with ease like only madonna can posess. it's a hot song...with a killer beat...it's about something bigger than all of us and it's got that 'now' sound but it's got a retro vibe to it at the same time. and the breakdown is just sick...check it out!

madonna - four minutes

special thanks to my dear pal guyruben for super quickly sending me the file!

you think you're punk?

(i kinda was the one on the left way way way back in 96...he is gorgeous!)
so basically....i knew when i moved to williamsburg in february...i would be dealing with and placed in contact with a lot of posers and wannabes and really young 'artists' who think that they are so fucking cool. i couldn't have been righter!

tonight on the slow and miserable train ride home...(it didn't help that i drank way past my quota for the night), i was mesmerized by the cutest little red headed boy standing directly across from me. i make it a point to focus on at least one or two unusually sexy guys when i'm on the train in order to make my painful trip more exciting.

basically i was all about him...he was interestingly dressed...a skull and cross bones impregnated jumper (yes i said jumper shannon!)...a quiet but loud to those "in the know" smirk on his face...he seemed cautious yet defiant....two mismatched qualities i devilishly love in an awkward man...

i was sadomasichistically transfixed upon the unsexy redheaded boy standing directly in front of me....painfully awaiting his stop as i was...he even had the strangest piercing i've ever seen in my piercing fascinated life....it was a tiny stud....high upon his upper cheek bone...the kind of piercing that you want to ask about even though you know it would be totally annoying for the person pierced to even consider responding to your questions of why and your questions of pain and importance...

oh god...i'm babbling again...but in that good way again...probably because yet again i am intoxicated again! (so unusual hehe).

he was hot....he was different...he was interesting...but then...the armagghedon struck...he pulled out his off white ipod and began spinning the wheel of audio....

i thought to myself...and i'm sure my chagrin spoke volumes...what a fucking douchebag...

he thinks on a constant rhythm that he is so ubercool yet he has bought completely into the system of i want i want i want that he actually has to spin his uncalloused thumb around and around to find the song he wishes to hear. he is the divine interpretation of the 'hipster' and he completely lost all of his sexy points...

oh well...another fantasy torn from my adolescent libido....i can deal...i can handle it...

i love when i babble and i love when i'm typing at the same time...

que sera sera...blah blah blah....blah blah...blah blah....

i think i like living in williamsburg....but i honestly feel like i'm either too old or i don't really fit in...or both...but then again...when have i ever fit in? that's always been my selling point...not fitting in...

ahhhhh cha cha cha chaaaa!